What I've been missed in my life?

I know this is blog related to my book reviews but excuse me for this personal one. :)

I've been thinking lately about what I've been missed in my life.
For several reasons, I always satisfied with my own life condition right now.
You can say I'm Hufflepuff, while I enjoy learning things, I'm not really a competitive person. I have super amazing parents, I have a decent job in a reputable multi-national company, I have super understandable managers, I have some good true friends who I can talk and joke around, I have a very great boyfriend who I love and a steady relationship. I love to manage my own shop, I always able to spare my time to read or to watch K-dramas or just binge-watch booktube in the night.
So... I can say, I have plenty enough things to be grateful.

Why this "what I've been missed in my life" thought has been bothering me lately?

I'm starting to questioning myself over: "Am I living my life to the fullest?"
Being twenty-seven years old, some of my friends already starting their married life and while the others continue to pursue their dream, take their chance to embrace the youth life by continuing their master degree abroad.
I don't say if you decided to marry then you would have to give up your dream, but to some extent, your personal dreams would slowly change to another direction, wouldn't they? You are not as free as when you are single.

I always say I don't need the master degree, especially now when I learn how to make money and I, 100% honest about that answer.
I don't really have the interest to get the master degree because what I saw in the industry, it isn't something that you must have. The experience is the more important than how higher your education. Right?

But...
What if I fearless?
What if I have better English skill? (My English is crap if you don't know me)
So many what ifs I could think about.
And maybe I could try to let myself dream about some things
That I forgot I have
Like continuing my study
Or trying to submit LPDP or at the other organization to see if I'm capable enough to get the scholarship
In the better Uni outside this country
Not to just get my degree done
But also to have invaluable experience
That I won't be sorry nor forget.

Some will say, it's not too late for me to try, I only twenty-seven.
For me, twenty-seven is the mature number for someone like me to realize.
To realize that excellent in math and accounting in school isn't everything.
When I wrote this, I just feel really foolish and an innocent person I was.
Maybe I will relive this dream.
But most likely I will forever live vicariously in the shadows of someone else.

One thing for sure
I will tell and encourage my future children
To fearlessly live their dream
Because you only live once


Sincerely,
Vie